Wake Up Call

Hey Jasmira! You know what? It's time for a change. You have achieved nothing so far. *CLAP-CLAP


How long do you want to stay this way? Forever? With this kind of attitude, you won"t go far. In fact, you're going to be someone you never thought you would be in 5 years time. And please stop thinking about those useless person you've met. They have done nothing for you. Appreciate the one who has been there when you need it. The one who is right in front of you. Maybe that person didn't show it that much but you know that he loves u a lot.


Don't repeat the same mistake twice. You know you're much smarter than this. Fight for what you know you can achieve and never let anyone fool you again! Never ever do that. Do what you love, do what makes you happy but please think before doing anything. Think, think and think again. Thinking never hurts, so think harder every time you have to make a decision. And never let anyone decide whats best for you. It's your life anyway, so why let others make the call? 


I wish myself the best. Amin.

Hopes and Fears

I believe in us. In you i put that trust.
I believe in you. We gonna make it through ♥

Heart Pouring

Okay let me get it straight here. I've been so cool towards every single thing that you are saying about me, assumed me, judge me. Everything u post in your blog, twitter, fb status. I just stay calm and respond nothing to it. Wanna know why? Because i'm being the water. You know, people say when someone is so mad at you they're the fire and you don't fight fire with fire. I know you're mad and i'm being the wise one to just handled it like a grown up girl. But to be honest here, i can't take it anymore. I've had enough . You know, other people got pride too. Don't go around and say things about me without you come see me and ask about it first. Maybe you're thinking that i did that to you in the first place but the thing is, until to this day, i still haven't got the clear view about what is it that your are so mad about.What is the thing that the "teller" told you? Don't punish someone who doesn't even know what they did wrong. It's just pure unfair.

I'm not blaming anyone here. Not even the "teller" which i have no idea who. You said this thing happened before. And it got me puzzled why didn't i know anything at all for all this while. I thought we're being honest through our friendship all along. You should have told me what is it about me that bugs you. If you did that, i'm sure this thing won't be this hard and you won't burst you anger like this.

My emotions are mixed. But frankly, there's no hatred or anger. More to disappointment and sadness i guess. It's sad seeing your best friend believed what others said about you without finding out about what is happening. I'm not saying that i'm right. But hearing both side of the story won't hurt. You didn't expect to judge someone with just hearing from 2 3 people did you? Not everybody is going to like me. But you should know me better. I'm not gonna write down things that i have done for you because all this while i am sincere. We've been friends since like when, 2008? It's 2012 now, and that makes it a 5 freaking years of friendship. I still remembered our life back then in the hostel. Goshhhh one of the best memories in my life. Before this everything is okay. You got my back and i got yours. And noww? What can i say. You don't even care if we lose this friendship because i guess you got tons of friends. I don't have tons of friends, just a bunch. But i make sure they're the type who have faith in their friends. Yeap i'd go for quality over quantity.

Some people even told me that i should just walk away from you because it's not worth it to fight for someone who never fight back for you when this kind of situation come. But i refuse to do that. I wish i could tell all this right to your face but it seems like you don't have the heart to even look at me anymore. There's so many things that i wanted to talk about but nahhh it's just so heart breaking. I'll back off if that is what's best for us both.

Cry Baby

Last post was not a good start of the year. But i have a feeling that this post wouldn't be any different. I didn't ask for this. I hate it when there's too much negativity in my head but i can't help it. I'm not sick but my eyes are swelling, my hands are shaking and my whole body is just too weak. There's a lot of things running through my head about why is this happening? Truth is, i love my family. But i dont think they understand me. They dont see the way i see things, they dont know what i want, they dont care about what i feel, they just dont bother to know what makes me happy. And they're being unfair. Being fair is very important to me. Nobody should get more or less than what everyone else is getting. Ever heard of this kind of personality? I told you i'm The Scale. Balance is what we seek.

Right now, i feel alone. Even if in a place so crowded with people, i'd still feel alone. Nobody for me to talk my heart out. He's busy with his thing and don't even have time to have some deep conversation. Arguing would be pointless. I know this is what he has been wanting for so long and nothing could stop him. Not even his studies and future which was reminded to him everyday. Friends... hmm i don't think there's any 'cry friends'. So i'm just gonna face this thing alone. I don't like being anyone's burden. Outside i may seem cheerful but inside i'm such a cry baby :(

Eff

Di saat ini ingin saya nyatakan sesuatu kepada seseorang yang berperangai seperti khinzir. Jangan sampai ada cop body glove di muka anda dengan cara sengaja. Ohh itu mungkin terlampau kejam. Mungkin saya boleh bongkarkan rahsia anda? Kejam jugak? Guess what? Peduli pula saya.

Sekian. Dengan tulus ikhlas, jari tengah sebagai tanda penghargaan.

Happy Things

Number of followers is increasing i see. Thank you! But don't regret it as i rant a lot here. Hehe. I also noticed the increasing in 'Numbers of People Stop By' on the right sidebar. I think i know who have been reading this blog :D


Okay! Nothing much to to tell actually. As a lot of people know, i'm actually on my endless holiday. Job hunting was not a sucess. Been offered to teach in a kindergarten as an english teacher. Err? Truth is, i don't mind handling kids. I'm surrounded by kids all the time in this house. But it comes to my mind that, can i be a good teacher? Even if its just a simple, level 1 english, i'm still worried because kids are an easily influenced creature. They do and talk everything they see without knowing what's good or bad. So i dont know if i'm a good role model. And for that reason i haven't said yes yet. Let me think about it again and again.


Happy thing is we are going on a vacation next week!! *robot dance* Haha yay!! But only 2 family are going. My 3 beloved uncles from Seremban won't be joining us because of some reasons. But i know their kids, which is my crazy cousins will tag along somehow. They wouldn't miss this once-a-year-fun-family-vacation. Unlike previous year, we won't be going to PD again eventho last year vacation at Ilham Resort was super fun. This year we will be going to a resort in Kuala Linggi. It was Kak Ayang's idea. We've looked at their website, it was a very traditional kampung house with breathtaking scenery. Check this out yo.

Very vintage. Can't wait to explore that place! We'll be like "Partyin' Partyin' Yeah! Fun, Fun Fun, Fun. Everybody's lookin' forward to the weekend, weekend"  *Rebecca Black mode on*


So that's all for now. Till then, be safe people! ;)

One Sentence Post

It's raining. I'm bored. I dont know what to do. He's working. His birthday is near. I dont have a job. I'm broke. I dont know what to buy. I'm screwed. Bye