which way to cut?

I know it is just one small thing to decide but it is quite important, because that is how my hair gonna be when i'm out, when i go to class, when i am anywhere.

I don't really want to cut it actually. I like myself with long hair but you knoww, long hair are HARD to manage and hair started to fall when it gets too long.

Also, there's some people who tries to help or break me with their opinions. Fiqa said, just get a trim since i look fine with long hair. Jijie want me to cut the hair till the shoulder line with bangs (on forehead bangs). Ema just laugh when i told her about this like it would help. And myself, i think i should just cut the front hair a bit and get a boring layer for the back.

Sooooo, i'll think about this over and over again before really doing it. I want the new look without regretting it later. I sound like a hairfreak now. HA-HA

i want you to

love me without fear
trust me without questioning
need me without demanding
want me without restrictions
accept me without change
desire me without inhibitions
for a love so free...
that will never fly away.

updating myself

i'm scared. really scared as the final exam is coming after hari raya. i dont think i'm ready for it.
because basically, i dont spend most of my time studying. yea lazy. i know. i'm a last minute type of person. many people complaining that. i'm really worried about my math paper. i have never ever like the subject math. i hate it very much. but choiceless, i have to sit the paper anyhow. but to reduce my anxiety, my syg promised me to teach what he knows about math. so i hope i can catch up with this one cute uitm student. hahaa. love you. muah muah.

till the end of time.

i met you unexpectedly.
i looked at you.
you're blushing.
i went home.
found you accidentally on an online site.
i said hye.
you gave a good feedback.
we then get to know each other.
and met again on an event.
i got his number.
we became closer.
then we both agreed to meet again.
closer and closer we became.
i then fell for him.
and he felt the same way too.
don't want to waste any time.
"will you be mine?" he said
"yes i will." i said
and two became one.
we've been through perfect happiness.
never fought, just argue and laugh at the end of the minute.
how amazing u can make me feel.
clock ticks and not a second i dont think of you.
we're now 2 months.
serious baby,i love you..and no one else could ever take that away.
you're the one and only,
MUHAMMAD AZIZI RAZALI.

he said she said

may i feel said he
i'll squeal said she
just once said he
it's fun said she
may i touch said he
how much said she
a lot said he
why not said she
(let's go said he
not too far said she
what's too far said he
where you are said she
may i stay said he
which way said she
like this said he
if you kiss said she
may i move said he
is it love said she
if you're willing said he
but you're killing said she
but it's life said he
but your wife said she
now said he)
ow said she
tiptop said he
don't stop said she
oh no said he
slow said she
cccome? said he
ummm said she
you're divine! said he
you are Mine said she

3 am

its 3 in the morning and i cant sleep. i have to go to Mantin tomorrow. pardon me, its today. earlier this morning, my mum woke me up and pass me the phone saying that theres someone who want to talk to me. its a guy from a college in Mantin telling me to come there because he said i got offered. so tomorrow theres some taklimat and an interview if i'm not mistaken. i have to bring some photos of my own, copies of my ic and surat beranak, my dad's pay slip etc etc. but the actual reason i cant sleep is because i cant find my spm results slip. *sigh. i have to find it no matter what. or else i cant go tomorrow and i dont want that to happen. i'm really clueless about what is my next step and what i'm going to do and whats happening to my future since i'm still here, at home. while most of my friends are leaving to colleges. i dont want to be a loser, so hey you annoying little result slip!! show yourself!! no time to play hide and seek!! arghh!

god's creature - the guys

"guys are like parking lot, all the good ones are taken."
haha. i read this quote earlier this morning. and i think that's kinda true bcause lately there's no GOOD guys has been approaching me. i mean like " mna pegi suma lelaki dlm m'sia ni?" haha.
it's not like i'm desperate in having a bf or anything but i think i've been single long enough. maybe thats bcause of the whole school thang but hey, school's over for me. yea there's like 3 or 4 guys who has beeen close to me and megayat me lately but sumanya mcm kayu. a hard standing still unbendable kayu. well, girls are like phones, we like to be held and talked too, but if u press the wrong button u'll be disconnected! and oh yea, of course it'll be disconnected if u didn't pay ur phone bills. aha. Later (",)

bbq at ax's

yesterday was fun!! we had barbecue at ax's. i'm so happy that after 2 months of waiting and missing them, i've finally met am, mel, capik and daus. and yea, of course padangs. i miss them. and we laughed like we always do when we hang. but i didn't hang out for long because i had to go home since my friend, ema arrived to pick me up. i'm a bit disappointed with faidhi because he act differently towards me in front of his friends. ahh! who cares?! ramai lagi kwn aku! heres some pic.

stressed out!

now, i'm pretty stressed out. and i guess the reason itself always make everybody stressed out too. MONEY!!! i've ran out of it. don't be surprised. yes! i am working but duit gajiku suda habis. well its pretty much my fault. i did't plan. frankly i hate planning things.
this evening Daus sent me a msg said : jas ble nk lepak ni?. lepak needs money and i just don't have any. i didn't hangout much with my friends after spm except for Tim. she's my bestfriend. and i mean it. a BEST friend. and Mel. he's one of my guy friend. and we're pretty closed. i miss him. the last time we went out is 4 days after spm. but thats 3 months ago. gah!
and Am. he's in Genting, working. i miss them like so very much!!
from left, tim, am, mel, yours truly ;)

starting

hey all, i'm jasmira. jasmira jamal. that's my full name. well i liked it very much. ehehe
i'm technically 17 years old since it's 6 months away from my birthday but i've finished schoolin. yeay for me!! aha. life without school is bored. no more fierce teachers, no more cuci mata tgk crush dkat skola (hahaha), no more lepak2 waktu rehat with my babes (btw rehat is my fav subject in school out of all, gahah), no more being bug by shamin (haha, missed u dude!).
basically it's just boring. i missed studying. can you believe that? me? missed studying? gahhaha. they said results will be out on 28th. man! i am so not ready for it.
there's bbq tmrrw night at Perdasama ( a persatuan for businessman which my dad was in)
and i can't wait to be there just because i want to meet MUKHLIS!!! he's hot!! he's hotter than hot!! he's one of the the members of Perdasama too. i met him last year at Perdasama's buka puasa event. and since that he's been listed down to one of my crushes. lol~ well, hope he'll make it tmrrw. wink >_<