whats wrong with me? whats wrong with you?

okay right now, i dont know whats wrong with some people around me. nape mcm yg rmai tak puas hati and nk merajuk ngan aku? if i did u wrong, please feel free to confront and tell me what is it about me that bothers u. aku lemas sgt mcm ni. klu tk puas hati ckp je dpan2. i can handle it. aku pun bukan jenis yg suka sgt nk pendam2 ni. it hurts more if u keep it to urself. sekarang ni aku rasa mcm ada 3 org yg tk puas hati or maybe merajuk ngan aku. their names of course will not be mention here. so if any of that 3 person read this, pls pls tell me whats the problem u're having with me. we're friends, so lets not ruin our friendship this way. we should solve things out. not adding it up.

u dont know what i went through

its over and done but the heartache lives on inside
the bruises all fade, but the pain remains the same
and i still remember how you kept me so afraid

baby dont you understand the damage you have done
for you its just a memory but for me it still lives on
i could still remember hearing my voice screaming please no more
it's not so easy to forget all the marks you left along my days

if its not for the things you've done, i'm assuming that we could still be holding hands today.but your chance has come and gone even though this heart used to be filled with your love

it aint easy for me to say goodbye but i must find myself another guy.
and i just hope that we'll have better life.

ixora

it's been more than 4 months since i left the hostel. but i still can't get over it. i'm missing my life back there. when i lived there, i think i got everything i could ever need. i got all my close friends, i can hang out whenever i want, i got nobody telling me what to do, i can wake up whatever time i want, i dont have to rush to go to classes. basically its just a perfect life for me. i miss a lot of my friends. i seldomly see them since i moved out from the hostel. let me list it down

1. my roomate - zila
the nicest roomate i've ever known. baik sangat. dulu ktorg slalu gi dinner sama2 dgn kwn zila, kak badar. diaorg baik sangat. dh macam kakak sendiri je hehee. zila tak penah berkira dlm ape benda pun. brg dlm bilik pun byk ktorg share. klu tgh lapar pun share makanan. thanks zila selama ni baik sgt ngan jas :) and her bf has the same birthdate as mine. haha kebetulan betul.

2. my bff - faranisa
budak comel yg putih gebu. we can be seen together almost everyday. pegi mana pun sama2. waktu tidur ktorg pun same. dua2 burung hantu suka tidur lmbat. on9 dlm blik same2, mkn maggi same2, mandi same2. pilih baju utk kuar pun kami perlukan satu sama lain hehee. dan dia selalu kejutkan saya bangun tidur ye utk gi class. selalunya cmtu lah org yg paling rapat akan menjadi mangsa utk kejut saya bangun tidur :D and ape prob pun akan dikongsi dgn fara kerana kami memahami satu sama lain :) love you so much babe.ohh and her bf birthdate is a day before mine. hehee kebetulan lg skali

3. my neighbours - mar n ila
mardhiah dan roomate nye ila. ktorg punye bilik depan2 je. klu bukak pintu bilik mmg nmpak bilik mar. dorg ni, masyallah sgt happy go lucky. suara mar mmg sgt power smpai dia bersin pun dr jauh bole dengar hehe. bilik diaorg akan jd sgt hapenning klu adib, kimi or lain2 dtg. akan dgr la gelak ketawa mereka. ada sekali tu ktorg main kad ramai2. lawak gle time tu. bising sgt. sumpah best time tu. rinduuu :)

4. my sista - kak yin n kak shafa
slalunya klu mlm2 ktorg slalu gi lepak bilik kak shafa. borak2, gosip2. slalunya cte psl girl stuff la. psl baju, psl make up sbb kak shafa tu byk sgt tips on beauty stuff. tgk la pun rupa dia cantik cmne :) and kak yin pulak slalu ajak hang out. kak yin mmg suka berjalan heheh. kak yin suka buat lawak. tak berhenti gelak klu duduk ngan dia :D

yang lain2 tu mcm ktorg slalu gi bilik isyqi. sbb isyqi tkde roomate so best klu buat bsing kat bilik dia hahaha. kdg2 pun ktorg slalu gi dinner ngan isyqi sbb biasa la kan saya dan faranisa ni tkde pengangkutan time tu kat hostel so ktorg slalu ikut org je la hehee. tq isyqi! :) tp kdg2 klu dh tkde option tu ktorg gi cafe je. wlaupun tk best tp tu je lah pilihan terakhir kami. i never thought i would say this but, rindu sgt kat hostel tu. rasa mcm nk pindah balik je. haihhh.

no more class

today was supposed to be my last class of this sem but dangggggg! i missed it! sbb ape? sbb traffic jam pagi2 kat sungai ramal. dah la ada quiz. sumpah aku PANAS gila. right after i reached college i went to see the lecturer, Puan Salma Salwa and guess what? aku yg kena balik. sobs sobs. bukan saya sengaja kan puan. dh traffic jam nk buat cmne. klu saya dok hostel saya berani jamin, saya la org fist yg smpai class. tp ni sangkut kat jam je dh dekat stengah jam. dengan minyak kereta yg dah nyawa2 ikan hadoiii. salahkan abg aku eh bodo sgt pegi bwk keta tgh2 mlm. tengok2 je minyak dh nazak. mama isi minyak utk aku nk pegi class kot. bebal kereta kebal.

tapi tima kasih jgak eh puan bg saya amik quiz. saya janji saya buat betul2 nti. hehe. yg penting esok aku nk kuar dgn ehem ehemmmmm. weeeee ^__^

gi mamp

erggghhh. sumpah dh lama gila tk blogging. tkde masa la bukan saje2. bukan dh jd rockstarr. eh tkde org tanya pun dh jd rockstar ke belum. kecoh la jas. gagaga
okeh! short sem ni sumpah busyyyy gila. sem ni amik 3 subjek dgn harapan nk abis cpat sket padahal aku ada 2 sem lg. so rilek jeh tkyah nk berharap habis cepat ye jasmira. hehee. plus kena uruskan teater utk malam prom nti. haaa pasal prom ni mmg aku bengang la bahbih. meh sini aku cita. ok dh la tarikh prom dh tuka, pastu nak banned teater plak. ckp mcm2. kutuk skrip ktorg. pastu pendekkan masa utk pementasan teater. mmg aku panas ahh kan. and jgn igt aku tk baca la ape kau tulis kat blog kau psl teater nih. dengan itu aku dengan rasminya nk bgtau yg kau dh masuk dalam kalangan org2 yg aku benci dan perasaan meluat bertambah2 bile tgk muka kau. nk muntah pun ada. terima kasih daun keladi, kalau tk suka jangan baca lagi.

uh oh

pretty and talented. i simply love her and her music. plus, she's british.
just awesome.

results coming out

I want peace of mind, calm and freedom from anxiety and worry. But can a person find peace of mind in a world like this? haihhh. Results coming out and i'm nail biting. =_="