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happy 2 months baby. i love you and u know that. :) i hope we'll get everything that we wished for. ur birthday in less than 2 weeks. i'll make it a special day for u. muahss.

bo to the san

*webcam pagi2. senyum sorang2 mcm perempuan gila -.-"

kosong

right now, i dont know what to think. jammed brain. but i'm the one who caused this. i should take the blame. look at what you've done jasmira. ya Allah, give me strength to get thru this.i really need someone right now. but its 5.30am. he's asleep. if only i could call him and cry my heart out to feel better. awhh i'm typing this post with tears. :((

thinking of deactivating my fb. goshhhhhhhhhhh i just need to run away from everything.

Muhammad Izham

I may not be his first, his last, or his only. He’s cared about someone else before me, and possibly will again. But he cares for me now, and that’s all that matters. I don’t expect him to be perfect, because I know I’m flawed as well. And it’s true, he may not think of me every second of everyday, and I may not be the center of his universe, but he gave me a part of him, he knows I can break. So I won’t hurt him, or try to change him, and I won’t expect more than I know he can give. My only promise is that I will make him smile when he makes me happy, yell when he makes me mad, miss him when he’s not there, and love him like he’ll never break my heart.

whats wrong with me? whats wrong with you?

okay right now, i dont know whats wrong with some people around me. nape mcm yg rmai tak puas hati and nk merajuk ngan aku? if i did u wrong, please feel free to confront and tell me what is it about me that bothers u. aku lemas sgt mcm ni. klu tk puas hati ckp je dpan2. i can handle it. aku pun bukan jenis yg suka sgt nk pendam2 ni. it hurts more if u keep it to urself. sekarang ni aku rasa mcm ada 3 org yg tk puas hati or maybe merajuk ngan aku. their names of course will not be mention here. so if any of that 3 person read this, pls pls tell me whats the problem u're having with me. we're friends, so lets not ruin our friendship this way. we should solve things out. not adding it up.

u dont know what i went through

its over and done but the heartache lives on inside
the bruises all fade, but the pain remains the same
and i still remember how you kept me so afraid

baby dont you understand the damage you have done
for you its just a memory but for me it still lives on
i could still remember hearing my voice screaming please no more
it's not so easy to forget all the marks you left along my days

if its not for the things you've done, i'm assuming that we could still be holding hands today.but your chance has come and gone even though this heart used to be filled with your love

it aint easy for me to say goodbye but i must find myself another guy.
and i just hope that we'll have better life.

ixora

it's been more than 4 months since i left the hostel. but i still can't get over it. i'm missing my life back there. when i lived there, i think i got everything i could ever need. i got all my close friends, i can hang out whenever i want, i got nobody telling me what to do, i can wake up whatever time i want, i dont have to rush to go to classes. basically its just a perfect life for me. i miss a lot of my friends. i seldomly see them since i moved out from the hostel. let me list it down

1. my roomate - zila
the nicest roomate i've ever known. baik sangat. dulu ktorg slalu gi dinner sama2 dgn kwn zila, kak badar. diaorg baik sangat. dh macam kakak sendiri je hehee. zila tak penah berkira dlm ape benda pun. brg dlm bilik pun byk ktorg share. klu tgh lapar pun share makanan. thanks zila selama ni baik sgt ngan jas :) and her bf has the same birthdate as mine. haha kebetulan betul.

2. my bff - faranisa
budak comel yg putih gebu. we can be seen together almost everyday. pegi mana pun sama2. waktu tidur ktorg pun same. dua2 burung hantu suka tidur lmbat. on9 dlm blik same2, mkn maggi same2, mandi same2. pilih baju utk kuar pun kami perlukan satu sama lain hehee. dan dia selalu kejutkan saya bangun tidur ye utk gi class. selalunya cmtu lah org yg paling rapat akan menjadi mangsa utk kejut saya bangun tidur :D and ape prob pun akan dikongsi dgn fara kerana kami memahami satu sama lain :) love you so much babe.ohh and her bf birthdate is a day before mine. hehee kebetulan lg skali

3. my neighbours - mar n ila
mardhiah dan roomate nye ila. ktorg punye bilik depan2 je. klu bukak pintu bilik mmg nmpak bilik mar. dorg ni, masyallah sgt happy go lucky. suara mar mmg sgt power smpai dia bersin pun dr jauh bole dengar hehe. bilik diaorg akan jd sgt hapenning klu adib, kimi or lain2 dtg. akan dgr la gelak ketawa mereka. ada sekali tu ktorg main kad ramai2. lawak gle time tu. bising sgt. sumpah best time tu. rinduuu :)

4. my sista - kak yin n kak shafa
slalunya klu mlm2 ktorg slalu gi lepak bilik kak shafa. borak2, gosip2. slalunya cte psl girl stuff la. psl baju, psl make up sbb kak shafa tu byk sgt tips on beauty stuff. tgk la pun rupa dia cantik cmne :) and kak yin pulak slalu ajak hang out. kak yin mmg suka berjalan heheh. kak yin suka buat lawak. tak berhenti gelak klu duduk ngan dia :D

yang lain2 tu mcm ktorg slalu gi bilik isyqi. sbb isyqi tkde roomate so best klu buat bsing kat bilik dia hahaha. kdg2 pun ktorg slalu gi dinner ngan isyqi sbb biasa la kan saya dan faranisa ni tkde pengangkutan time tu kat hostel so ktorg slalu ikut org je la hehee. tq isyqi! :) tp kdg2 klu dh tkde option tu ktorg gi cafe je. wlaupun tk best tp tu je lah pilihan terakhir kami. i never thought i would say this but, rindu sgt kat hostel tu. rasa mcm nk pindah balik je. haihhh.

no more class

today was supposed to be my last class of this sem but dangggggg! i missed it! sbb ape? sbb traffic jam pagi2 kat sungai ramal. dah la ada quiz. sumpah aku PANAS gila. right after i reached college i went to see the lecturer, Puan Salma Salwa and guess what? aku yg kena balik. sobs sobs. bukan saya sengaja kan puan. dh traffic jam nk buat cmne. klu saya dok hostel saya berani jamin, saya la org fist yg smpai class. tp ni sangkut kat jam je dh dekat stengah jam. dengan minyak kereta yg dah nyawa2 ikan hadoiii. salahkan abg aku eh bodo sgt pegi bwk keta tgh2 mlm. tengok2 je minyak dh nazak. mama isi minyak utk aku nk pegi class kot. bebal kereta kebal.

tapi tima kasih jgak eh puan bg saya amik quiz. saya janji saya buat betul2 nti. hehe. yg penting esok aku nk kuar dgn ehem ehemmmmm. weeeee ^__^

gi mamp

erggghhh. sumpah dh lama gila tk blogging. tkde masa la bukan saje2. bukan dh jd rockstarr. eh tkde org tanya pun dh jd rockstar ke belum. kecoh la jas. gagaga
okeh! short sem ni sumpah busyyyy gila. sem ni amik 3 subjek dgn harapan nk abis cpat sket padahal aku ada 2 sem lg. so rilek jeh tkyah nk berharap habis cepat ye jasmira. hehee. plus kena uruskan teater utk malam prom nti. haaa pasal prom ni mmg aku bengang la bahbih. meh sini aku cita. ok dh la tarikh prom dh tuka, pastu nak banned teater plak. ckp mcm2. kutuk skrip ktorg. pastu pendekkan masa utk pementasan teater. mmg aku panas ahh kan. and jgn igt aku tk baca la ape kau tulis kat blog kau psl teater nih. dengan itu aku dengan rasminya nk bgtau yg kau dh masuk dalam kalangan org2 yg aku benci dan perasaan meluat bertambah2 bile tgk muka kau. nk muntah pun ada. terima kasih daun keladi, kalau tk suka jangan baca lagi.

uh oh

pretty and talented. i simply love her and her music. plus, she's british.
just awesome.

results coming out

I want peace of mind, calm and freedom from anxiety and worry. But can a person find peace of mind in a world like this? haihhh. Results coming out and i'm nail biting. =_="

unexpected

Takziah kepada keluarga dan rakan2 terdekat Din Beramboi atas pemergian arwah pada 12.30 malam tadi. Sesuatu yang tidak dijangka sebab rasanya macam baru je dengar suara dia gelak2 waktu pagi buat sawancara kat radio era. sumpah best. you are loved by all. al-fatihah.

bosan soban nasob

cuti ni sangat bosan. aku tktau nk buatpe dok kat ruma ni. klu time ada class aku malas nak pegi. klu time tkde class cmni aku jd rindu nk pegi class. ape masalah aku ni pun aku taktau lah. hadoii

HEE-HEE

YOUR REAL NAME:
= Jasmira

STAR WARS NAME:(the first 3 letters of your last name, first 2 letters of your first name)
= mirja
*mcm nama org jawa

DETECTIVE NAME:(favorite color, favorite animal)
= purple zebra

SOAP OPERA NAME:(middle name, town where you were born)
= mirakajang
*nama tanak poyo plak en bajet cam aku gengster kjg nih. haha

SUPERHERO NAME: (2nd fav color, fav drink, add "THE" to the beginning)
= THE green ice tea
*sodap betul bang nama superhero camni

FLY NAME:(first 2 letters of 1st name, last 2 letters of your last name)
= jara
*ye mmg bole fly sangat

ROCK STAR NAME:(pet name, current street name)
= lulu3B
*ape kejadah sume ni

PORN NAME: (1st pet, street you grew up on)
= juraganjenaris
*ini dah bukan porn dah ni bai

YOUR GANGSTA NAME:(first 3 letters of real name plus "izzle")
= jasizzle
*dah macam nama rapper yaw

YOUR GOTH NAME:(black, and the name of one of your pets)
= blacklulu
*woah. org gerun sgt dgr nama nih. hahaa

STRIPPER NAME: (name of your fav perfume, fav choc)
= creed daim
*mmg menggoda la weh :D

WIZARD'S NAME: (last 3 letters of mother's name, first 3 letters of current job, first 3 letters of your zodiac sign and last 3 letters of home street's name)
= inastulib3B
*aku dh gelak guling2. adoi

try it out ^_^

gimme gimme gimme what i want

i want new hair,i want new skirts,i want new atittude,i want new bf.
is that all possible?

lima

well. this semester is coming to an end. i got one more paper to sit then i'll be free from books. hoorayyy. this fifth sem of mine is the one that i'll never forget. many things happened like:

-i dont skip classes without solid reason
-i made bunch of new friends
-joined kpacc unintentionally
-i broke up with my bf which i think is the right thing to do
-been exposed with the modeling thingy which is fun
-i communicate better
-moved out from hostel (i hate this part)
-started karaoke-ing and addicted to it
-i didn't spend much money on topups
-i didn't gain weight eventho i took some pills
-i socialize more
-i have a new mindset about people
-i'm aware with guys 'sweet talks'
-i can handle stress without screaming like a mad woman anymore
-been abused which is a tragic thing that had ever happened to me
-and i finally felt the real college life because i can hang out with whoever, wherever, whenever i want without restrictions. not like previous sem.

the best and the worst semester :)

think twice

if kau letak gmba aku kat profile kau semata2 sbb nk bhn je baik tk pyh letak la. asal kau mcm dh ade gene khinzir ni ha?

love is in the air

yesterday was valentines day. a day where couples cherish their love. it's not really good though to celebrate it. so as muslims, maybe we should just go out and have dinner or watch movies and see the day as a normal day where we have date with our partner. not as a valentines day that we have to go out and celebrate. but as for me, today all i do is playing games. no chocolate, no flowers, no teddy bear, no partner and not even a single love sayings wished. :) thats okay. dont really mind. but i admit it, i feel a bit lonely lately. pffftt :p okay maybe its not a bit. its more than a bit. i'm used with a loved ones by my side 24/7. ones who care about what i do, where i go and stuff. i really miss that. but there'll be voices saying, " what about go and have scandals?" for god sake, pleaseee. i mean like, what are scandals for? what benefit do you get? scandal is like having someone to flirt with u. not someone who would love and take good care of you. scandal is all about being flirty and while being flirty with ur scandal, you flirt with ur other scandal. wtf? so the answer is no. yes i have some guys that i've been close to but they are SO not my scandals. that is the process of getting to know whether we are compatible to be lovebirds :)

so apparently i haven't found anyone yet so far. but dont get me wrong. i'm not desperate. it's just that i'm lonely. and i'm afraid that when i'm lonely, i'd fall back to that......errrr. no no no. so i'll keep it cool. slow and steady. and i also dont want to meet any guys that want to be my bf just because of what i have and not what i am. it should be the other way around rite. may i found the right one. amin. (",)

how cute :)

BA to the BI

yesterday,i was so boring just sitting at home. mama and baba were sleeping. nurul in front of pc. other sibling missing in action. so my sister, mimi and i decided to cut our hair since mimi dh lma nk ptg rmbut dia yg dh mcm rapunzel panjang gle.

so i drove all the way to kajang town and i'm thinking of cutting it at Hairazone which i went last year and satisfied with their service. but when we pass by this one saloon named HairProfile, mimi saw this sign that says HairCut - RM9.90. and she managed to make me say yes. okay so she's first. i tell the hair stylist, which is a chinese guy with a korean looking hair but tkda la cute mana pun kn. i told him just to trim mimi's back hair. no layer. make it round. and make some bangs for front hair. and done. it was okay. then my turn. i asked him just to cut my front hair but somehow he manage to covinced me to cut my back hair also. dh la aku nk simpan rmbut panjang kan. haish. so chop here there. done. so ktorg pun pg la kat kaunter nk byr kn. then he said, "erm 2 org kn? rm60".

i was like ACIK KAU?!. tp aku diam je la kn. so aku byr je la pdahal dlm hati dh berapi2 ni. then i asked, "kat luar tulis rm9.90 je?". he answered, " oh itu isnin smpai khamis je before pkul 2.". macam gampang sial. asal tk tulis kat luar? nk buat business strategy pun agak2 la en. cuba imagine klu time tu aku takda duit? how? haish unimaginable. so trus ktorg bla. dgn rmbut aku yg aku rasa mcm tkda perubahan pun.

before

after

macam haram =_="

latest stuff

okay. so kpacc is helding an audition in purpose of seeking talent among kliuc sudents on this 27th and 28th January 2010. and i'm in charge in acting part. means i have to prepare some material like situation the candidates have to act on the audition day. but until now, i have got NOTHING yet. damn it.

and oh ya, judges of acting auditions will be Ms. Vicky and Mr. Vijay. the others i dont know yet as fara and i havent meet Pn. Intan. sumpah byk gle keja nk buat. plus dgn assignment and presentation lg. busiest sem ever. but also, i feel like its the best sem i've ever had. and i think i'm improving a lot. so i guess, ni la hikmahnya when ''that thing happened to me". thanks to you LOSER that i am now more independent that i can stand on my own two feet.

thanks to all my friends that have been supporting and protecting me through that painfull process i had to go through. my life is much better now. may allah repay your kindness towards me.
*million thanks*

you wanna get it over and done with?

ada la sorg ni. ktorg rapat sgt dlu. rapat in terms of 'kawan' la. but setelah jd kejadian2 yg membuatkan keselamatan dia terjejas, dia avoidkan diri dr aku. ok la kan. tkpe aku fhm. but now, ble aku rsa yg tkda lg harm yg bole terjadi kat dia sbbkan berkawan dgn aku, dia still jgak amik keputusan utk tak bertegur dgn aku. bukan la aku mcm gila babi nk dia baik ngan aku suma kn. but fk la of what we used to be back then. sedih ble pk2 blk. but still, its all up to you. nk tegur, tegur la. tanak tegur tkpe. i'll act normal. evnthough i miss those old times of ours.

thanks for everything. =)